I should just know the answer before I even consider the question. The answer is no. It's always no. There is no more Yes And like there was once upon a time, though I wonder if it was real even then. Maybe my memory is faulty and it's always been no.
Maybe it's just that my timing is bad.
Maybe it's deeper than that.
I feel a little lost, confused. Maybe I need to regroup again, constrain myself to getting streamlined, fixed, replaced by an automaton that can just do and not think, not feel, not have hopes.
It's the hope that stings. If I create my own carrot, then perhaps it's something I can actually rely on, something that is tailor-made for me. I cannot rely on hope to be a motivator, it is only useful as a tool for destruction and pain.
Hopefully you've realised that when it comes to getting the love or money you want, sitting around and waiting for a miracle just isn't going to do it. Sure you can pray and make wishes, hope and keep your fingers crossed. But at the end of the day, action is needed. You have all the heavenly assistance you could want right now, when it comes to expressing yourself and acting. Venus will soon work her magic on you. Prepare yourself. If someone is giving you mixed signals, let it be known that you're ready to be told the story - straight.
Yeah, okay. Tell it to me straight baby.
In the meantime, I'll be in my Cave of Ultimate Destruction.