Tom Ramcigam (magicmarmot) wrote,
Tom Ramcigam

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Several weeks ago, I decided to go off of the antidepressants. The idea was an experiment to see if I had learned coping skills enough that I could deal with depression and anxiety that way, rather than through medical means.

The Positive:
Indeed I have learned better coping skills, chiefly among them is patience. I still don't have all the patience in the world, but I have more than I did.

The Negative:
Unfortunately, it's not enough. Between losing the refi, tax and money issues, and general stress, I have become unnecessarily frustrated and angry. Today I recieved some news that really put me over the top, and I can't get it out of my head.

I'm acting irrationally, and far out of proportion. And that is a recognizable side effect of going off the antidepressants, which I've been watching for.

So I'm going back on them. It will take some time to get back to the kindler, gentler me, but I can't continue being like this.

On the other hand, the thing that put me over the top is a real issue, and one that I need to address. And it's not something easy, it's going to take time and money, and I'm not going to have the money for a long time.

Therefore, until further notice, Magic Marmot Studios is shut down.

If I'm currently working on your project I'll do completion, but I'm not taking on any new projects that would mean people coming to the Big Broken Box™. I will still help with other projects as my time allows, but on a limited basis.

It breaks my heart to have to do this, particularly at this time when the potential seemed so good. I'm trying to take it as a temporary thing, but right now it feels like forever.
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