Nothing much has changed since yesterday. I'm still on a reasonably good track in my life. There is sadness for friends, sadness for the ex-kitty, but this is not sadness. Nor is it weakness. There is self-disappointment, but it's logically discountable. The feelings have nothing to do with logic or rationality, they're not changed by knowledge or words, they just are.
I may well be subdued today. I don't really feel like being ebullient or playful. That may change later, but for now, I'm more wanting to hide and cower in the shadows.