Tom Ramcigam (magicmarmot) wrote,
Tom Ramcigam
magicmarmot
  • Mood: crushed
Having a depressive episode today. I recognize it as such, and understand that it will pass. But today I am feeling deeply vulnerable, overwhelmed, sad, and the whole gamut of emotions that comes with depression. There's really nothing that I can do about it other than what I'm already doing.

Nothing much has changed since yesterday. I'm still on a reasonably good track in my life. There is sadness for friends, sadness for the ex-kitty, but this is not sadness. Nor is it weakness. There is self-disappointment, but it's logically discountable. The feelings have nothing to do with logic or rationality, they're not changed by knowledge or words, they just are.

I may well be subdued today. I don't really feel like being ebullient or playful. That may change later, but for now, I'm more wanting to hide and cower in the shadows.
Tags: depression, navel gazing
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