Something of an emotional wreck today.
This is one of those "trough" days, a valley in the peak-and-valley rollercoaster of emotion that happens with depression.
Brain feels like mush, like thinking through Jell-O, unflavored and unspiced, dim and slow. I feel like I'm losing bits and pieces of memory, bits of how to be able to recall things, like it's at the tip of my tongue but I can't quite get there. So far it's not to the extent where I'm worried about early-onset Alzheimer's, but it's scary when it happens.
Depression and stress affect memory and cognitive ability too. As does diabetes.
Yeah, cognitive bump. Like making a simple arithmetic mistake in the bank balance. Whoops. Means that Christmas will be a bit on the skimpy side this year, like devoid of any prezzies. I'm fine with that myself, but I would have liked to be able to give some things to friends that aren't gonna happen in the soon.
Scrooge. Grinch. Bah, humbug!
This is one of those "trough" days, a valley in the peak-and-valley rollercoaster of emotion that happens with depression.
Brain feels like mush, like thinking through Jell-O, unflavored and unspiced, dim and slow. I feel like I'm losing bits and pieces of memory, bits of how to be able to recall things, like it's at the tip of my tongue but I can't quite get there. So far it's not to the extent where I'm worried about early-onset Alzheimer's, but it's scary when it happens.
Depression and stress affect memory and cognitive ability too. As does diabetes.
Yeah, cognitive bump. Like making a simple arithmetic mistake in the bank balance. Whoops. Means that Christmas will be a bit on the skimpy side this year, like devoid of any prezzies. I'm fine with that myself, but I would have liked to be able to give some things to friends that aren't gonna happen in the soon.
Scrooge. Grinch. Bah, humbug!
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magicmarmot- Tom Ramcigam
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we get more excersize cause the weather is better.
microsoft has a department for embedded programming too
I'd need a job, one that pays extremely well. And a place to build an underground house-and-studio-and-manufacturing complex that's close enough to urbia to be convenient for getting stuff but far enough away that there is land enough to do what I need to do.
Maybe I should apply for dual citizenship. :)
i'd marry you if it would help.
ha.
http://www.johnlscott.com/propertydetail.aspx?GroupID=55777461&ListingID=30933148
I know *I* do.
Except for the $1.7 mil price tag.
I have thought about moving out there. It's not completely OOTQ, but there are things that I need to deal with here first, goals I have to accomplish to free myself from my own constraints.
And there's fear. Here I am a known quantity, or at least to a point I am. To go out there, I'd have to have some wider name recognition to be successful.