I hate that I've become so incredibly self-centered lately. I realize that it's a necessary step in the process: my life currently revolves around eating, what I can eat, when I can eat, how much I can eat, what goes in, what comes out... it's all re-training, and it's intensely focused. And it forces me to look at myself pretty continually at the exclusion of others.

I hate that.

There is more to my life than food, but right now you'd never know it.

The second thing is the whole space-cadet feeling. I have a really hard time focusing and concentrating on things. Some days are worse than others, but even the best days I'm not all there. And that's hard, being the brain-in-a-jar that my self-image has created.

So hey, I hope you can forgive me for not being my normal self. I'll try to get back to things, I promise, but it's gonna take some time.