crazedI don't need permission anymore. There's a kind of disconnect in my head about that, but it's starting to leave and be replaced by the knowledge that this stuff really is my decision, and not anybody else's.
On the good side, it's nice having permission. On the not-so-good side comes the knowledge that I'm also responsible for the consequences of those decisions.
No, this probably makes very little sense to anyone but me, other than the obvious "duh!", but there is context in my head.