It's hard to admit failure. I've been able to separate out the creative and technical successes and cordoned off the failure in just the business mode which makes it survivable, but still for someone who likes to do a lot of different things and likes to do them well, a set of miserable failures doesn't sit well.
There's always been this part of me that has kind of felt that as long as I kept the equipment, there was still some chance that I could turn it around and be a success if I could just figure out how to fix the stuff I wasn't good at, but the time has really passed for the venture part of my life and I need to be able to close the book. I'm still keeping on with making movies, but I'm just not gonna be doing client work anymore, and the large part of the studio is equipment for that purpose.
It's a good sized monetary loss as well. Probably 90% of the value is depreciated from when it was purchased. I think I'll be happier when it's gone, but the depreciated value isn't exactly insignificant either, so I don't just want to give away everything. It just kind of hurts to consider that what I've lost just in depreciation would buy a fully-loaded luxury vehicle.
Then again, even a fully loaded luxury vehicle depreciates.
My ideal is that I find somebody who is putting together their own production house, or enhancing what they already do by adding video (much like I did), or getting backups for their existing equipment. One person, one time, and done. Selling it piecemeal is like getting stabbed to death slowly by toothpicks. I think I may have found someone to buy it all at once, but I'm a little skeptical until I see the green.
We shall see.