Tom Ramcigam (magicmarmot) wrote,
Tom Ramcigam
magicmarmot
  • Mood: depressed
It's become kind of obvious today how much of my life has revolved around work. Not just the time spent and the paycheck, but the structure of my plans and the projects I've been doing. Suddenly that structure is no longer there.

And then there's the feeling of being punished for having done something wrong, without knowing what it was. I know that it has nothing to do with me, that it's completely circumstance and I am just a statistic born of a panic-driven business decision.

Knowing is not the same as feeling.

Then there's the feeling of being dumped, that somehow I wasn't good enough. And again, I know it's not true, but it's still there.

It's a murky day.
Tags: unemployment
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