December 28th, 2004


Livin' Large

Man, I just don't know what to write.

I'm a little off-balance right now. I'd like to be all centered and
grounded and know where I'm going, but that's just not possible under
the circumstances. I want to crawl into a hole and hide.

Depression, maybe? I'm already taking medication for it, so it wouldn't
be surprising. But maybe the depression is a symptom of something

I've had a lot of revelations about myself come pouring in fast and
furious in the last couple of weeks. It's a lot to absorb, a lot to
process. I need some downtime to figure it all out. Or maybe it's just
to recover from the shock of enlightenment.

I'm doing okay. I'm making progress toward what I hope is a better me,
devoid of neuroses and capable, strong and lovable, and happy. It still
sems like a long way off. And when the waves of epiphany come washing
over my little rubber dinghy, each one gives me a better clue to the
right direction. I just wish they didn't have to be so goddamn big.

When you get caught between Des Moines and New York City

Corruption Little Girls
The cells within our blood
Ford dumped on it's grey thing
Existence in the dark
Hey, dig it out
dig it out
ass spelunker
I hear a yam's stuck
in the smiddly-doo
Looks like Batman brought me some pudding
might as well face it
you're a dick with a glove
My cheese on toast, a bottle of wine
I'm out of Betty Ford
Beer is how I cope,
consuming what is veal
Like a homo I was born to walk alone
I blow bubbles when you are not here
I wish I could tell the world 'cause
you're such a pretty thing when you've got a firm willy
This mind, this buddy and his foreskin
Cannot be stapled by your deviant ways
Feel the phone cords in her thigh
I licked a bug the other day
Just call me an island sleaze
All my body yours for free
This is who I long to be
Louise the Bone Eater
Nice beaver, nice beaver
Somebody better put that bag in your face
It's me; I'm a tree, I'm a wombat
Oh, so cold at the end of your winter
Crack, baby, crack, show me your rear
Jesus blessed me with his sphincter
Big chunky butt love

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Alright, look. I hate drama, and I hate propogating drama. It's unnecessary and ridiculous. C'est fini.
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