which I've been getting a little lax about this last week, finished up
the quickie wiring diagrams for the breezeway, and even started writing
the screenplay for "The Magic Bear".
I also went and saw Harry Potter and had chinese food, but that was
more of a relax-y thing.
Got my first electric bill, too. 70 bucks. Then again, that covers the
AC, stove, and washer/dryer.
Realized coming home from the movie that I actually live down here now.
Like I've started thinking of this as home. It was a sad moment, kind
of a breakpoint.
Considering dating again. Not considering it soon, but more thinking
about it and what it means. It's kind of like auditions-- I used to get
really nervous at auditions because there was this need in the back of
my mind to GET THE PART, but after a while I began to just enjoy the
auditions just for themselves.
And I think that's the key. Dating doesn't have to be about getting
into a relationship. It can be about spending time with someone who may be
a new friend, or may turn out to be completely the wrong person, and
I think I'm starting to heal. I'm starting to feel like maybe I'm
worthy again. Like it's not a race anymore, I can just take it as it comes.
Hey, it's a start.