I hit a major depressive episode that peaked on Sunday afternoon. Lots of things contributing to it, and I suppose not entirely unexpected, but I had forgotten just how bad it can get.
And today I realized that what I really wanted was to be held and comforted. I wanted to be wrapped in the arms of someone that I know and trust, and have my head petted. I wanted to be gently caressed, and gently caress in turn. Just a comforting touch.
I don't have that down here at all. And I really miss it.
On one hand, I think I should be strong enough to not need to be cuddled. I think it's just something that I desire strongly. And succumbing to that desire just shows weakness.
On the other hand, it's debilitating. When it gets so bad that it gets in the way of everyday life, it's a problem. I think we all need some meaningful physical human contact.
I'm coming back to Minneapolis this weekend, and I'll be staying through Convergence weekend. If anyone feels like spending some cuddle time either during the week or at the convention, it would be most appreciated.
You can find a lot of contact info for me on my user info page. And you can text message me without it counting on my cell minutes; just follow the link on the user info page.