Some scattered thoughts this morning, mostly work-related.
I don't like what I currently do. Parts of it I like-- I like the creativity of coming up with something new, and the fun of learning new skills-- but the vast majority of what I am doing here is not creative. If anything, it's anti-creative. I think that's why my creative bone is throbbing so wildly lately, because I need to express that creative side.
A couple of days ago at a staff meeting, we had a presentation on "creativity inthe workplace". It was odd coming from this place, and it was infuriating, because it was all about "managing" creativity, and trying to channel it into innovation, because that is the only reason that creativity should exist in the workplace. It focused on there being "a time and place for creative thought", and tried to put a structure on the creative process.
Corporate creativity. Gah.
If you are a manager, your primary skill should be in mamaging people. Understanding them as individuals, their strengths and weaknesses, and learning how to work with them to get what you want from them. I believe that people who are happy in their work and enjoy what they do will do their best work. If you don't enjoy what you do, or you are unhappy in your work situation, you should find something else.
Guess I'm in my own boat here.
I've known for a while that I've wanted to do something else. And that I hate working for other people. But I really like working with other people, people with passion and drive and a love of what they do. I want partners, not bosses. I want to find a core group of talented people who have an interest and a passion for filmmaking, and see if we can make some waves.
It won't pay a hill of beans. At least not for a while. It will provide exposure, and fun, and a creative outlet, and what I hope is a good group of close friends.
I know that group is out there. I know some of them already. I need to find more. I need to find people with good business sense. I need to find front-end people who can find opportunities. I need to find artists and musicians and actors and tech people. I need to find a space to make all of this happen.
I can feel it, just below the surface. It's time.