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Some scattered thoughts this morning, mostly work-related.

I don't like what I currently do. Parts of it I like-- I like the creativity of coming up with something new, and the fun of learning new skills-- but the vast majority of what I am doing here is not creative. If anything, it's anti-creative. I think that's why my creative bone is throbbing so wildly lately, because I need to express that creative side.

A couple of days ago at a staff meeting, we had a presentation on "creativity inthe workplace". It was odd coming from this place, and it was infuriating, because it was all about "managing" creativity, and trying to channel it into innovation, because that is the only reason that creativity should exist in the workplace. It focused on there being "a time and place for creative thought", and tried to put a structure on the creative process.
Corporate creativity. Gah.

If you are a manager, your primary skill should be in mamaging people. Understanding them as individuals, their strengths and weaknesses, and learning how to work with them to get what you want from them. I believe that people who are happy in their work and enjoy what they do will do their best work. If you don't enjoy what you do, or you are unhappy in your work situation, you should find something else.

Oops.

Guess I'm in my own boat here.

I've known for a while that I've wanted to do something else. And that I hate working for other people. But I really like working with other people, people with passion and drive and a love of what they do. I want partners, not bosses. I want to find a core group of talented people who have an interest and a passion for filmmaking, and see if we can make some waves.

It won't pay a hill of beans. At least not for a while. It will provide exposure, and fun, and a creative outlet, and what I hope is a good group of close friends.

I know that group is out there. I know some of them already. I need to find more. I need to find people with good business sense. I need to find front-end people who can find opportunities. I need to find artists and musicians and actors and tech people. I need to find a space to make all of this happen.

I can feel it, just below the surface. It's time.

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revdj
Jul. 23rd, 2004 07:43 am (UTC)
A couple of days ago at a staff meeting, we had a presentation on "creativity inthe workplace". It was odd coming from this place, and it was infuriating, because it was all about "managing" creativity, and trying to channel it into innovation, because that is the only reason that creativity should exist in the workplace. It focused on there being "a time and place for creative thought", and tried to put a structure on the creative process.

I've heard a lot of these kinds of presentations - and they come around every few years with a new set of buzzwords, but the same idea.

Dear God, it makes me angry. Not "annoyed in a laughing cynical detached way" - I mean really angry. It takes something beautiful and Good, and tells people it is "okay, as long as you use it in the workplace." AND it teaches non-creative people to simulate the behavior of creative people, and call themselves "creative." The equivalent of someone buying a notebook, learning to smoke, and sitting in the coffeeshop writing, "The stars.. the stars... are like tiny points of light." It will ultimately harm them, and it certainly annoys the really creative people, who are now told that anybody can be "trained" to do what they do.

FEH!!!

DJS

P.S. Speaking of creativity, I stole the "the stars..." joke from Dave Sim.
theatre_nerd
Jul. 23rd, 2004 08:28 am (UTC)
*sigh*
This entry rings true on so many levels with me. You have no idea...
magicmarmot
Jul. 23rd, 2004 03:56 pm (UTC)
Re: *sigh*
So tell me. :)
theatre_nerd
Jul. 23rd, 2004 07:12 pm (UTC)
Re: *sigh*
"I don't like what I currently do."

AMEN! Survival job. That's what I call it. Something to make ends meet while I try to do what I love. Act!

"the vast majority of what I am doing here is not creative."

No kidding. Ugh. I don't feel challenged at all! In fact, I feel this job is making me complacent. Stupid. I am not growing here.

"I believe that people who are happy in their work and enjoy what they do will do their best work. If you don't enjoy what you do, or you are unhappy in your work situation, you should find something else."

Well said. Easier said than done I'm afraid. I admit, my performance at work is lackluster because NO ONE gives a shit around here.

"I've known for a while that I've wanted to do something else."

Yes! But, I can only do what I love on a volunteer basis. Takes a lot of energy and I find that I don't have the time to carry on two full time jobs. One of which does not pay.

"It won't pay a hill of beans. At least not for a while."

If I had even the slightest glimmer of hope that my acting would pay a hill of beans, I might be tempted to move forward and explore it further. As it is, it doesn't. That sucks, but I have to pay the bills.

"I can feel it, just below the surface. It's time."

I have to make a change. I can feel my temper boiling at work. If I don't leave soon, something bad will happen. I don't want that.
Even though we work different jobs, I can totally understand where you're coming from!
magicmarmot
Jul. 23rd, 2004 08:51 pm (UTC)
It's work, and love at the same time.
Well, you are the kind of person that I want to find. :)

Pity that you are so far away-- although Lincoln is only a couple hours from Des Moines.

You know, Minneapolis has a considerable theater community. Not that I am recommending that because you hate your job and need fulfillment that you move there or anything...
theatre_nerd
Jul. 23rd, 2004 09:05 pm (UTC)
Re: It's work, and love at the same time.
To tell the truth, I am really curious about what Minneapolis has to offer. I would like to just pick up and move one day. But, if we move, the hubby doesn't want to move to another cold climate. I am afraid we will just keep arguing about where to move and then we'll just be stuck here. *pounds fist*

You going to ICON? DemiCon?

Oh...what an arty icon! :-)
magicmarmot
Jul. 23rd, 2004 11:04 pm (UTC)
Re: It's work, and love at the same time.
Probably not, unless something changes my mind. I usually hit CONvergence and Omegacon. Now if there were a HotGeekChickLookingForAGoodManCon, I might go. :)
lexinatrix
Jul. 23rd, 2004 12:39 pm (UTC)
My boy gets on my case for not pursuing a career in interior design with anything resembling a serious effort. I've a weird analytical/creative dichotomy to what I enjoy doing, so by moving toward one (like analysis, duh) I necessarily distance myself from the other. So, I take out my creative frustrations on my home and others (as they'll let me).

How this relates to personal integrity can be read a couple ways. Either I have enough respect for myself that I pursue some aspect of what I enjoy ... or I don't have enough to take the leap toward a creative career.

I don't feel slighted, so I can only assume that I don't perceive myself as having "sold out" or otherwise compromised myself.
magicmarmot
Jul. 23rd, 2004 03:59 pm (UTC)
I can understand at least a part of it.
There is great risk involved with going off on your own, and that risk is enhanced when you can get paid resonably well working for others.

And I'm probably gonna call on you sometime for decorating hinty-things after I get the house squared away. Particularly the venetian plaster-- I'm tending toward an italian/mediterranian feel in my mind.
lexinatrix
Jul. 24th, 2004 08:26 pm (UTC)
Since I just helped James do an Italian/Mediterranean-inspired dining room, I think I can help there.

As well as tips and tricks with Venetian plaster. Such as: don't waste time or money on the topcoat they want to sell you. It doesn't change the tone dramatically, and is frikkin' expensive.
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