Bad dream. Not a nightmare really, just left me with a vaguely uncomfortable feeling.
I wonder if I'm doing a lot of second-guessing of myself and others right now. My brain is in analytical overdrive, and I have miles to go before I sleep.
Here's the point that has me all bamboozled: one of the things that I want in a relationship is a healthy partner. And I'm primarily talking about emotional health here. And there's this little trick that I learned way back when, that those things that you want in a partner are most often the things that you want in yourself... it's a little more complex than that, but it's possible to use that list of wants as a reflection to see yourself in a new light.
So I think that before I am ready to consider the possibility of a serious relationship with someone, I need to be solid.
But are we ever emotionally solid? Are we ever strong and healthy emotionally? And if it's possible, how do you know when you are? Or how to get there?
The dream was inspired by a short story that I read recently that was chock-full of dream imagery. The protagonist kind of invented the "perfect" woman, and ended up destroying himself in the process because of his own weakness. Great story, not so great dream.
I think it's time for me to stop analyzing for a while-- but I don't know how. It's what I do.