Did not do presents this year. Choice for a couple of reasons, money (or the lack thereof) being right up there. The other big one was being rather in denial during the holiday season, trying to keep my head down and buried so as not to have to deal with the whole being alone part. Though my Mom was down so I wasn't technically alone, I think you get the drift.
I was doing fine until Christmas day, watching Big Fish. Kick ass movie, but it sent me into a whole tizzy of self-doubt. I spent a good couple of hours wondering if I was really making the right decision, wondering if I was just being selfish, wondering this, wondering that.
Late night Saturday, I ended up chatting with a friend for a couple of hours. We got kinda deep into some things, and she told me something that made my ego become rather engorged. It was a good thing, even though I know that it was exactly what she meant to do. I am so easily manipulated. :)
Maybe more later.
