I put up another profile, this time at The Onion personals. I had to think about whether or not I wanted to open myselfup to the possibility of dating again, but when I thought about it some more I ended up seeing it as a marketing ploy.
It's most likely that if I do start dating again, it will be with someone I meet as a friend-of-a-friend or through some activity, and not online. However, the online thing works as a kind of filter: I can be as stringent and descriptive as I want to be, and if there are no responses it's no great loss (other than the mundanes thinking how weird I am), but if I do get a response, it's probably worth checking out.
One thing that I don't like about online dating sites is that they very often put age as a primary filter. I am not my age. I am not defined by it, I don't act like it, I don't look like it. I feel it sometimes in the mornings, but that's about it. When I'm filtered out because of it, it's a missed opportunity that might otherwise have been a good match.
I haven't re-listed with eHarmony. It costs money, and I'm not at this point willing to throw money at it. I'm much more content to let the free stuff happen and trickle down if it trickles at all. And part of that is that right now I don't want to get serious, and eHarmony is all about the serious.
I don't know where any of this is going, it's just a consumable in my cold-medication-addled brain.