Trying to get a handle on how I feel, and I realize I can't. It's like my head is filled with noise, like a great rushing of water that won't let me focus on the feelings, All I get is a vague sense of disquiet.

I dunno, maybe it really doesn't matter. I don't really have time to feel anymore, and it doesn't change anything, it just is what it is.

It seems wrong, like something bad. Except I don't feel bad about it. Not numb exactly, just white noise and something uneasy.