Yes, I've been avoiding any kind of in-depth emotional posting as of late. It's pretty much because I'm shut down emotionally as much as possible. I'm also filled with distract-y goodness so that I can not think about the heavy emotional issues that live in my psyche.
It's not that I feel like ignoring them, it's that I already know what they are. And they never really change. There's not a lot of progress, and what progress there is is slow and plodding. I don't need daily fight-or-flight updates.
I do however need some sleep. I've been averaging somewhere between 4-6 hours of sleep a night for the past several weeks, and it's catching up to me a lot right now.
Overwhelmed by Nawlins, or what was once Nawlins. Unfathomable. My problems seem petty in comparison. At the same time, I'm isolated from Louisiana by 2500 miles of flowing water, where at home I live in my own encumbrance.
So yeah, if you're wondering:
Still lonely
Still frustrated
Still living in a pit.
