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Yes, I've been avoiding any kind of in-depth emotional posting as of late. It's pretty much because I'm shut down emotionally as much as possible. I'm also filled with distract-y goodness so that I can not think about the heavy emotional issues that live in my psyche.

It's not that I feel like ignoring them, it's that I already know what they are. And they never really change. There's not a lot of progress, and what progress there is is slow and plodding. I don't need daily fight-or-flight updates.

I do however need some sleep. I've been averaging somewhere between 4-6 hours of sleep a night for the past several weeks, and it's catching up to me a lot right now.

Overwhelmed by Nawlins, or what was once Nawlins. Unfathomable. My problems seem petty in comparison. At the same time, I'm isolated from Louisiana by 2500 miles of flowing water, where at home I live in my own encumbrance.

So yeah, if you're wondering:

Still lonely
Still frustrated
Still living in a pit.


( 4 comments — Leave a comment )
Sep. 2nd, 2005 11:03 pm (UTC)
>Still living in a pit.

Maybe the House of Usher just needs to fall down and go boom...
Sep. 3rd, 2005 06:59 am (UTC)
I think I second that.

Porches and walls and roofs can be fixed. But the past is a ragged hole that no amount of plaster will ever fill.

Metaphorically speaking, of course.
Sep. 3rd, 2005 08:03 am (UTC)
But consider that the past doesn't change in a new location. Baggage is baggage, and the past is a ragged hole that no amount of swedish bikini models in hot tubs will fill either, but it sounds a hell of a lot more fun than plaster.
Sep. 3rd, 2005 08:04 am (UTC)
House of Usher... nice. Apt.

Thought about walking away more than once. Problem is that it's only trading one set of problems for another.

Better the devil you know than the one who cooks you on a big rotisserie skewer for eternity.
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