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Ask me a question. Any question. And I'll answer it 100% honestly. However in return, I get to ask you a question back which you must answer with honesty as well.

Anyone else can join in answering a question as well that has been previously asked, as if the question had been asked to them. They can then ask a question as well. And so on and so forth. Thinking of it as a confessional/get to know people pyramid scheme.

Here's your chance, kids. That thing you've either been dying to know, or dying to get me to admit in a public forum. No holds barred, and anonymous comments are fair game.


For some reason, this makes me nervous.

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magicmarmot
Jan. 2nd, 2006 03:39 am (UTC)
Tough question, I had to think about it a lot. And as it turns out, it's kinda selfish:

Being respected and admired.

Now back to you: Your illness sometimes gets in the way of your performing/creating. How do you deal with the frustration of that?
sybildiscontent
Jan. 2nd, 2006 07:24 am (UTC)
I don't. Not really. I get upset. I get depressed. I get angry at those around me and blame them for my lack of interest or energy...I'm human. And worse than that, I'm a human with a fatal chronic illness that is shortening my years and sucking my life now with it in the form of low enerfy, mood swings, malnutrition and a ton of other things that come along with this wreatched damned disease.

But I do the best I can. It is a slow moving beast for now, and for that I am grateful. I tell everyone I meet what's "up" with me, and as we go on forming a bond, a friendship, I try really hard to let them know that things will happen with me- a lot- where I need to ditch out on plans, or will cancel last minute or go home early blah blah blah.
But you want to know my worst secret? Sometimes, just...sometimes...I HATE having to explain myself again and again and again. SUCH a waste of energy...no one knows. No one truly understands...sometimes those demons win.

But I try not to let them. Thanks for asking. Oh, and I have cats, ne of which is purrrrring in my ear right now (he floats!!!!!) and is SO FREAKING CUTE! Animals help. Patience helps. Stuffed cows help...
magicmarmot
Jan. 2nd, 2006 07:40 am (UTC)
I get the chronic illness thing. Mine is different of course, but there are enough similarities that I understand when you just can't do what you want to do, what you should be able to do. And it fucking hurts.

One of the reasons that I ask is that I want to exploit use you more in the future for projects that are coming up, and I know I need to work within what you can do. I don't know what that is entirely-- I know that for myself, I don't realize my limits until it's way too late-- and I need you to work with me in figuring out ways to make that something that can happen.

Not right now. There will be time enough later. I've still got my hands full with this current beast.
sybildiscontent
Jan. 3rd, 2006 05:49 am (UTC)
....er, don't you mean your hands are full with this current bReast?

magicmarmot
Jan. 3rd, 2006 06:37 am (UTC)
I only wish it were so. I have a bunch of stuff to coordinate for six different second-unit shoots, starting this weekend. After that, I still have ADR, Foley, and color/exposure correction to handle, as well as final mix.

Tony wants first cut in March. My sphinchter sings with excitement.

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