It disturbed me.
I know why I never moved out to LA/Hollywood. I've been there, and I didn't like it. Moving out there without already having a steady job in the film industry would be really risky, and it's not my kind of place.
I've never been there. Hell, I've never been to Seattle or the PACNW. And now that I have some friends out there in the land of grunge, I could probably make a vacation type of visit. Particularly since I now actually have a job that provides for paid vacation time.
Vancouver seems to be something of a Mecca for sci-fi and horror movies and TV series. The list of productions shot there is pretty amazing. And sci-fi/horror is definitely in my genre.
But there are those pesky practical considerations. Like income and citizenship and crap like that.
At one time in the not so distant past, I would have never even considered the possibility. I figured I was a Minnesota boy, born to stay. Sure, I lived in Colorado for a while (Eastern Colorado, really more of a suburb of Nebraska), and I did my time in the Gulag, lookinmg forward to coming home the whole time.
But home really isn't home anymore. Home is the Big Broken Box™, which even though is less broken is still not home. It is very much Box, place for stuff.
The old crusty home is where the heart is kinda leaves me cold, because my heart isn't really anywhere anymore. Yeah, I have friends here. And my Mom lives a few hours away. But really those things are the only things that are keeping me connected here anymore, and ma's gettin' up there in years.
I really like the idea of making my way as a filmmaker. And I do believe that it's possible to do here in the big bad city. I think I might even know what direction to take to make it possible, and I wanna go there. If I eventualy go to Vancouver, I want it to be from a place of success, to make movies and not to just hold lights or hump cables.
I have to have both patience and the motivation to move my ass. And I need the creative spark to juice up.
Spring is a time of rebirth. Maybe it can be a time of growth, too.